I used to be addicted to the phrase “i’ve grown up.”
I was also an over-user of all the variations… “I’ve changed,” “I’ve matured,” “I’m very different now,” “I’ve learned so much,” etc. I liked the idea of change. I also liked separating the person I was “now” from the person I was “then.” I’ve been guilty of doing this to try to distance myself from past wrongdoings, mistakes, or misunderstandings. But the truth is… I hadn’t really learned. I still made the same stupid mistakes over and over again and failed to see the error. I was claiming to have learned something in order to justify my actions to myself or others. The truth was.. I hadn’t grown up yet. And now that I have at matured, at least since high school, I wondered… Do we ever grow up enough to be able to say “I’ve grown up”?